Due to my divorce and the circumstances from it, I have not seen my eldest daughter for 7 years. I know she is graduating with an Associate's Degree today and moving on to a 4-year school. I can only hope that she knows that I love her as her father tries drilling into her head that I don't. Just because I am not there does not mean that I love her any less. I am there in Spirit. I ask the Lord to light a fire in her heart and not allow it to dim. Let her see You for who You are. An all powerful, awesome, and loving Father. Her earthly father can never compare to the love You provide. I am regretfully not attending her graduation ceremonies as I do not want to run into her father. He verbally and physically abused me for far too long and continues to try doing so verbally through my mother. Telling my mother to tell me things while insulting and throwing guilt with it.
I am better than his abuse. I do not deserve to be bullied, harassed, or guilted. I did what I had to do and have hope that my relationship with my daughter will be reunited. God promises restoration. I however do not want restoration with my girls' father. I never want to see him again. I want the ties severed. I never asked for the girls to not see one or the other parent. Due to the circumstances, that is what has happened. The older doesn't see me though she could if she wanted, and the younger doesn't see him due to court order, nor do they see, or talk to, each other. Sad.
Marriage is to be a sacred unification between a man and woman and last forever. I only pray that the young girls that are preparing to accept marriage proposals today will look to God before saying "yes" to the man proposing to them. God-centeredness is so needed in a marriage. God in the center keeps things balanced. God does not prevent strife, but He does help to resolve it, or lessen the burden from it.
Seeking God first prior to any decision is important, not just marriage. His will is power. His will pushes us to our destiny and purpose in this life. To bring forth His glory on this Earth and bring Heaven down to meet it.
I love you Sarah Elizabeth, my precious first-born daughter, whatever you might be doing. I am proud of you for what you have accomplished and proud to know that you are pursuing an education and career. I only pray for the best in your life. I miss you and love you more than you will ever know. The door is always open and when you decide to walk through it, I will be on the other side with arms open wide to embrace you in love.
Sarah Elizabeth = Princess consecrated to God. His protection over you forever and ever. Amen
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